Stress after Stress
It seems that exams stress do not stop after exams. It continues. And in my case, the stress mounts. Exams were over more than a week ago. But it still haunts me till this day. Everyday I dreamt that I failed my exams, I dreamt that I have exams I have not studied for, I even have dreams all the way back to having failed Chinese in O levels. Although I am sure when I am awak that I passed my O levels straight, sometimes I wake up worrying about exams. What’s worse is that the results are coming out in the noon today. I think that even if I pass this exams, I would still be daunted every night.
Besides exams, I now have to worry about business, about work. There is work to be done. Even before graduation, I am already facing the business world with business and employment stuff. Last week, I got a call from a certain corporation wanting to interview me for a certain position in the company. I do not know how the hell they got my contact details, and why they think someone who is still studying is up for the job. Worse of all, they do not know my age. And there, it breaks the deal. For now, I am facing worries over the newly start-up business. Many issues to settle with this business. Invoices to be completed daily. Accounts to be in proper. But non seem to be successful. Besides that, I have to think of ways to save costs for the three companies in the area of IT. And now, Jeremy wants to hire me to work in his web development company. Still considering the offer though. I am already stressed up with too much stuff, I do not know whether I can stretch my brains anymore.
Human relationships also stress me out. I dream of getting back stabbed by friends. Getting rejected by friends. All sorts of relationships stress me out. Family relationships too. Besides all this, one person makes me stressed to the limit. I am getting crazy. All this sleep working is making me retarded. Really retarded. I can’t think properly all the time. I keep forgetting things even if they were hanging by my tongue.
Help!